I've Got Chills, They're Multiplying..

So I've been having a hard time with work outs this past week, and finally on Thursday I found out why.. 

I awoke on Thursday morning, couldn't swallow at all, my head was pounding... I had felt a tad under the weather before Thursday, but just believed it was because it was so dry at work. 

When I woke up in such a state I immediately called my doctor. I NEVER go to the Doctor..  only to get my birth control renewed, or for my annual. So they got me in A.S.A.P....  My doctor asked the usual questions, and I responded honestly.. fever ? No.  Sore throat? yes. Ear Ache? Actually yes. So she then went to hear my breathing. I was having a horrible time taking a deep breath.. and she said, "holy cow, you're very hot, you have a terrible fever"... Oopsy! I should have realized  that it was the first time in weeks I wasn't cold. Then she looked in my mouth, she said, you have strep.. then she looked in my ears, and turns out I have a double ear infection too! Also did I mention I was vomiting in the office, so I have a stomach flu too! OH MY GOODNESS!

So needless to say I haven't worked out since Tuesday, I haven't been counting my points, because I have only been eating soup and drinking coffee (who knew coffee was good for ear infections? Thanks Mr. Pharmacist!).. So who knows what the scale is going to reflect tomorrow. 

I emailed my weight watchers leader.... Told her how defeated I felt... she ordered me to realize I am not invincible, and to feel free to ask for help any time I feel weak. I can't always be the strong one for the other girls at weight watchers. I have a horrible time admitting that I need help, that I'm weak, that I've been defeated... Thank God for Nancy.. she's my angel, and because of her I was able to give up this week, and realize it's out of my control. 

I don't know how I'll do tomorrow, but in all honesty I don't care. I know I am a strong woman who will bounce back from this. 

I probably won't be able to post tomorrow, I am headed to the States to spend the Canadian Long Weekend (Victoria Day AKA May 2-4, in celebration of Queen Victoria) at Darien Lake in  New York State.. I hope I can go there and still get better.. we're camping out! Lord help me.. but at least I have the good drugs!

I need to go to bed.. and try to nurse myself back to health before the morning.. Maybe going to work and trying to push through this wasn't a smart idea.. my doctor told me to stay home, but I feel the pressure of the responsibilities I have.. see can't admit defeat!

Take care everyone... I'll post my results soon! 

xoxo